Thursday, April 24, 2008
The Poem
In this great city that has no end,
Yet the days go by and weeks rush on,
And before I know it, a year is gone.
And I never see my old friends face,
For life is a swift and terrible race,
He knows I like him just as well,
As in the days when I rang his bell.
And he rang mine but we were younger then,
And now we are busy, tired men.
Tired of playing a foolish game,
Tired of trying to make a name.
'Tomorrow' I say! 'I will call on Jim,
Just to show that I'm thinking of him.'
But tomorrow comes and tomorrow goes,
And distance between us grows and grows.
Around the corner, yet miles away,
'Here's a telegram sir,' 'Jim died today.'
And that's what we get and deserve in the end.
Around the corner, a vanished friend.
Monday, April 21, 2008
Aquarian Lover
But today, I plucked up my courage and was determined to have a proper conversation with him. It started up quite general and it got more and more personal. I was so happy because he was so friendly and nice to chat with. Suddenly the bomb exploded in my face. He told me he was an Aquarian!
Ha ha ha ....Another Aquarian! Why god? Why does he have to be another Aquarian? There eleven more star signs and yet the one that I fancy have to be an Aquarian. Two of my ex-es were Aquarian, many of my flings were Aquarians and even my good good friend is an Aquarian! Please don’t get me wrong. I am not an Aquarian hater but I do wish I can get out of this curse of being attracted to Aquarian. Generally they are nice people but seriously, I think I have had enough of them for lover. To explain myself, I googled the internet to describe them in as a lover;
They approach love with their head, are turned on by mental stimulation, and seek to experience a mind-meld with a lover. They can be fickle, flirtatious, indecisive and double-dealing, and they prefer affairs to commitments, but they could vow loyalty if they meet a compatible communicator with a sunny disposition who's glamorous, noble and ardent.
I think the ‘... fickle, flirtatious, indecisive and double-dealing ...’ bit explains why I have problems with Aquarian lovers. Or probably I’m not glamorous, noble and ardent enough for my ex-es.
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
Paris, Je T'aime

Few years ago, I had a job in Paris for Tourism Malaysia for 10 days in the month of February, the end of winter and the beginning of spring. The first 3 days of the trip was so cold but after that the sun made its way and spring came.
On the last day, we had the whole day to ourselves. I decided to walk the city. This was my second trip to Paris and I wanted to see the non tourist place. I wanted to go to a park. After checking the map, the nearest park from where I was staying was a park located on the north western part of Paris.
I was so happy at the park with flowers were blooming everywhere and Daffodils were in wide range of colours. Parisians were looking so happy with their family, lovers, friends and dogs. Most of them had their picnic baskets with them and playing Frisbee, football or just reading books.
I was doing my sketching with my baguette sandwich on the side, sitting under a willow tree overlooking a family playing soccer, when someone spoke to me in French. I turned around and saw him. He had these soft beautiful blue eyes, long blonde hair and an amazing smile. With my limited French, I told him that I speak very very little French. I asked him if he speaks English and he straight away spoke English with the sexy French accent. He asked me if I was art student. I told him that it was just a hobby. He said that is a nice hobby to do on a nice day. He then introduced himself. His name was Francois a student at a local university somewhere in Paris doing a degree in writing. We then chatted about everything under the sky for more than 2 hours and both of us managed to come out to each other and also shown a keen interest in one another. He then took me for a stroll around the park.
He showed me the playground, the eateries, the lake, the lawn bowl game with old folk and we ended up at the woods part of the park. It was at the woods that he held my hand. I was shocked. I told him that it was broad day light and he was quite daring. He explained that that part of the park was a cruising area. Only then did I realise that there were other men cruising in between the trees. Cruising in the Park in the broad day light! Wow! Paris, je t’aime! We happily walked hand-in-hand while kissing each other in the wood. I invited him back to my hotel and he accepted my invitation. Back at the hotel, we made out passionately overlooking a fully pink blossom Sakura tree outside my hotel window.
My last day in Paris and it was so so sweet!
Tuesday, October 09, 2007
Ramadhan & Painter
I woke up I the morning with my dick fully erected. I had not been having sex for quite awhile. It was so hard that is was actually rather painful in a way. I was tossing and turning in my bed trying to not thinking about fucking or being fucked but nothing helped.
I suddenly realized that a soft squeaking noise on my window. I turned and realized that someone was cleaning the window. The whole condo was getting a fresh coat of paint and there were painters on metal crane painting and cleaning the exterior walls of my condo. They finished painting the wall and they were cleaning the windows. The painter was at my bedroom window and he was looking at me. I was initially embarrassed and tried to cover my self. The painter seemed to be zooming at my crouch area. I played with myself a bit under the sheet and he smiled. I was not so sure if he was really interested in what I wanted him to be interested in. He was quite cute, dark skin but with a pleasant white teeth smile. Anyway, I was so damn horny! I got up from my bed and was walking to the toilet with my hard on when I saw him licking his lips. I then smiled at him. He looked like as if he wanted to come through the window and give it to me.
Suddenly, I heard another voice calling for him and he shouted back at the person. He gave me another big smile, turned around and climbed down the crane.
Shit! I was slutting with a bloody building painter. Thank god it is the fasting month, if not I would have pulled him in and fucked him real good. But where did that leave me? I was horny the whole bloody day on the holy month of Ramadhan. I had to wait for the sun to set before I could do anything ….
Saturday, September 15, 2007
Blanket to a Child
They asked me the same question. My answer was ....
'Similar to Superman but instead the blanket goes under my armpit and tied at the back of my neck. Viola! It was wrap around sarong ..... I was in drag.'
My other PLU friends got excited with my answer and told us that when he was a child, he had his blanket made into a tunic fit of an Egyptian queen based on a TV series super heroin in the the early 80's, The Mighty Isis! He even had his younger brothers to become his slaves to complete his play fantasy.
Amazingly, with just a piece of material you would be able to tell the child's potential sexual orientation.
Thursday, August 09, 2007
Weekend in Bangkok
I arrived on Friday night but the rest of my family took the earlier fight on that same day. I had only one hand luggage and family asked me to meet them at Silom Center for dinner straight from the airport. We went around the mall after our meal and by time we were done, I so tired. We walked back to our hotel which was apparently very closed by. Approaching the hotel, to my surprise, I notice that our hotel was next to a gay sauna, Sauna Mania! That is so damn kewl!

The next day the whole family went shopping and dinner at Chao Pharaya. We got back to the hotel at 11pm and everyone was so tired. But that was a Saturday night and I just had to go out that night. After a short rest, I pull all my strength together and went out alone.
I went to DJ Station but I felt it was too much for me as I was tired. I only managed to stay there for an hour or so. After DJ Station, I headed to Sauna Mania. The sauna was simple and pleasant in deco. The main patronage of the sauna are young executive Thais. On Saturday, it is an underwear night. They give the patron a very small towel and the patron are to only wear their underwear or swim trunk, if they came well prepared.
My first Thai encounter was on the roof top. The roof top was covered with potted plant hedges that was designed to created a green maze. He was in one of the green chamber, sitting on a deck chair. As he saw me entering the chamber, he gave me the sexy look while playing with himself. I was so turned on. He has this beautiful gym bod and very cute Thai feature. I sat on the stool next to him and he reached out to me and started to play with me. He pulled down my boxer and playing with me. However, the green chamber does have door a and the rest of the patrons kept popping in and out while he was blowing me. A few even decided to joined but they were an ugly lot and both of us was not interested at all. After being harassed so many time, he took my hand and lead me to the proper cubicle two floors down. As usual, these cubicles are well prepared for intimacy. He was a good fuck. Our session lasted for quite awhile with no conversation involved. After finishing, while he was wiping himself, he spoke to me in Thai. Obviously, I did not know any Thai and only then did he realise that I was not Thai. As for him, he did not speak English that much. Both of us was slightly disappointed but heck it, I had my fun. We left the cubicle and both of us went separate ways. He went to the shower and and went back up to the roof top. Half an hour later he came back up to the roof top looking for me. He had a piece of paper in his hand with his number on it. I was obliged to take the piece of paper but what was the whole point if we just could not communicate at all!
After my first encounter left, another Thai boy walked in the chamber where I was sitting. He took an instant liking for me and went straight down on his knee and blew me off then and there. One Thai hunk came few minutes later and wanted to join in the fun. The Thai hunk thought that he was a-god-send-from-heaven for gay gay. He practically shoving his dick into my direction and the Thai boy. He expected both of us servicing him. I was quite annoyed with him. However hunk you are, you need to think the needs of others too. I just left the chamber, leaving the hunk and the boy going for it.
I sat on a day bed at the open space and fell asleep immediately. An hour later, an middle age Thai was fondling me. I took his hand and politely declined him. I went back to sleep right after. About half an hour later another elderly Thai was groping me. I knew then that I had to move away before more to come.
I went to the dark room on the 1st floor. Apart from the maze they have created here, they had also laid out a big mattress in the corner of the dark room. When I first arrived at the sauna, I have checked the area but nothing was going on the mattress area. But at 4 in the morning, there was a orgy going on there. To my delight, one of the guys, who was at the corner of the mattress, pulled me into the scene. At first I was at the corner of the mattress and then slowly, I was pulled right into the centre of the orgy. It was like the scene from Caligula!
After the reenactment of Caligula, I walked through maze towards the exit. I realised that as it was nearer to the closing time, everyone was more desperate to hook up and had to materise their purpose there. Everyone was going at anyone in the dark room. I went back up to the roof top and that it was also the same case. Next time I know that if I have no catch at all during my visit, I'll make sure I'll stay on to the closing time for the 'discount sales'.
I got back to the hotel at 5am and my mom had just woke up for her morning prayer. I managed to get 4 hours sleep before my mom woke me up to join the family for another shopping excursion. After lunch, they left for the airport as had one extra day for my fun alone. I checked into Babylon lodging.
My room in Babylon was two single bed room. As soon as I have arrived in my room, I tried to contact my Thai friend who I met on my last visit. I wanted to give my friend the extra coupon I had for Babylon sauna. As there was no coverage on my phone and I had to go out of my room to the corridor to look for some coverage. As I was doing so, a Chinese guy was coming out of his room and instantly, we both took a fancy on each other. I went back to my room and he followed me into my room. We had a quickie. After he left, I decided to go Silom road to get some last minute shopping. I sent a sms to my friend on the way there. My friend called me when I was at Silom road and he later picked me up at one of the mall where we first met.
We went back to Babylon. There was a party at Babylon sauna, which was hosted by a local gay magazine. The entry was B300 and ironically I thought to myself that I managed to get a B600 for the free coupons. Whatever!
The party was wild. They had free drinks and finger food. There was also continuous performance by few different drag companies. Most importantly, there were so many type of men there. My Thai friend told me that it was quite a big crowd for Sunday. That night I had one Singaporean, one Arab and one Mat Salleh. Me and my friend left the sauna at around 10pm and the party was still going on. We were too hungry to care any more. We had late dinner at a nice Thai restaurant not far away. When I got back to Babylon lodging, I barely could open my eyes. I slept in my cloth!
The next morning, I woke up at 5am. I had to check out by 730am but it was too early to get ready. However, nature called and I had to go to the toilet. In the lodging, we share the toilet and the shower room. It was designed for cruising. As I was coming out from the toilet cubicle, a cute mature Mat Salleh was brushing his teeth at the sink. As I was leaving the toilet, he was sizing me up. I rushed back to my room and quickly took my toiletries for my shower. I dashed backed to the shower room and as I had expected, he was waiting in the shower room with an erection. Obviously, I went for it. It was a damn good morning sex.
I checked out of the lodging and left for the airport on time. My checking in at the airport went smoothly. I had plenty of time to kill at the duty free. I was walking slowly and going through each and every one of the shop that was to offer along to my departure gate. After coffee, I decided to go to the toilet before my flight. When I was in the toilet, I notice a nice cute Thai boy in a uniform who was obviously working in one of the shops at the duty free. He was already at the sink when I got in. He stayed on at the sink pretending looking at himself in the mirror until I was done. I was dead sure that he was cruising me. I had only half an hour to my flight time. I walked out of the toilet, he followed me out. He gave me the indication to follow him which I did. At the shop he was working, he braved himself and approached me. He told me that his off time was in 15min and he can take me to a quite place in the airport for a quickie. Of course I had to reject as my flight was in 15min time. He took a small receipt and wrote him number on it. He said the next time if I'm in Bangkok, to give him a ring.
I realised that I had only 10min to rushed to my gate. I had to run to the gate and was the last one at the gate. The plane took off immediately I got into the plane.
Tuesday, July 10, 2007
To Chem Or Not To Chem
With threesome as the bait, I had no hesitation of accepting their offer. I went back with Mike and Joe to their place after clubbing.
I knew they were already on E at the club and I was cool about. They offered me some in the club but I declined. Back at their place, we were sitting in the sitting area and Mike rolled a joint. I was ok with the joint and joined them smoking it. The joint sort of set us into action. Popper was introduced in the middle of the action. I sniffed the poppers. Being stoned while having sex was quite an experience for me. Every possible positions were explored in the long hot sex. Mike and Joe had so much experience in it that the role was being changed constantly so as the focus was never on one person. I was really enjoying it so much.
Suddenly, Mike stopped and walked away. Joe and I continued the wild sex. Mike came back with a joint, two pills in his hand and a bottle of mineral water. He offered the E to Joe and me. I took the pill. Wild Threesome Part 2 instantly started after the short break. Joe was holding the joint when Mike was going down on me when all of the sudden, Joe went into a seizure. Both Mike and me started to panic. Mike was trying to grab hold of Joe and I was frantically trying to put off the small fire started from joint that Joe dropped. It seemed that it went on forever because both of us were bloody stoned. After a long long while, Mike screamed at me to call for the ambulance. I went to the phone and I looked blank into the phone, obviously having an anxiety attacked from the whole ordeal. Mike had to grab the phone from from me and called the ambulance. I just stood there staring at Joe.
At last the ambulance came. I continued standing still while watching the paramedics wheeling Joe away. Mike followed Joe to the hospital. Feeling miserable, confused and was still so stoned I went back home. At that point of time, I felt so wasted and I have never been so scared of my life. The whole incident kept on repeating in my mind over and over again every time I closed my eyes that night. I vouched to myself that I will never do chem any more.
